— (via relentlesseyes)
That fucking was supposed to be reinforcement for, like, dramatic effect.
Not more music made FOR fucking.
…although I’m good at making that kind of music too.
So… Maybe both.
Also I haven’t been blogging a lot because I haven’t really been finding stuff I’ve particularly wanted to reblog lately. I go through those waves occasionally.
On another note, I guess on a scale of 1-100, 1 being the lowest, my life’s about a 40 right now.
I haven’t been at my best in 2014. Haven’t been writing music, just moved, love life has sort of gone to shit, 2 people who left an imprint on my life passed away, I’ve lost some confidence in friends, I’ve lost some motivation to do certain things, my self-esteem is a little on the rocks at the moment, I’ve been overeating and undersleeping…
On the plus side of things, I’ve been praying more recently, I’ve been spending some time with good people, I haven’t let certain things that used to annoy the shit out of me get to me as much, I’ve been smarter with my money, haven’t been wasting a ton of it at bars and on stupid shit, been playing with my bands a lot…
What I really could use is a car. Yep. A car would make my life very easy. I’ve missed a lot of opportunities thanks to not having a car. And let’s be honest here, yeah its sort of a superficial thing, but really, what girl likes a guy with no car?
Am I right? Meh. Whatever. I’m tired of being so weak. I’m tired of not letting myself be as emotional as I am. I’m tired of not getting angry when I feel I kind of deserve to be angry.
A lot of the above “cons” I mentioned can be fixed. Obviously I can’t bring my 2 friends back to this life and that’s depressing. But my love life… I can take more charge. I can be more honest and figure out what I want and need, and what’s killing me. My self esteem… honestly, the more I create, whether its lyrics, music, art, whatever, the better and more confident I feel. The overeating and oversleeping, hell I just need to get some kind of good solid schedule going for myself. And also I need to get back in the swing of eating healthy stuff again like I was doing so good with for awhile.
And again, a car. I need a fucking car like yesterday.
I need to make more fucking music.
— (via zevksiz)
i want to look like an arctic monkeys song